Weight of the world..

So you know the saying, it gets like that sometimes? Often it really does be like that 🙄 and more time when you feel like it’s ALWAYS like that it’s something I call “weight of the world”..

Now you’ve deffo heard of that saying before but I truly believe it’s a reality. That sometimes, some things, somewhere can create a bigger problem than needed or intended. It’s like a domino effect almost, one thing leads to another and this great snowball of added tensions doesn’t help.

In my case I find it hard when people try to understand me and don’t. Often we don’t understand what vibe we give to another as all people interpret things their own way, but one thing I do know is that if your intentions are pure than this “weight of the world” won’t feel as heavy.

Take me for example atm I’m sat on my bed after a whole day of cleaning and getting over my mid-mid life crisis and I’m feeling pretty shit but will it last forever? Hopefully not 🙄 .. for sure it won’t lol

But my point is for myself and for anyone else that ever will read this blog that when you feel like the world is against the energy you’re trying to put out sometimes it’s not always a bad thing, it just means that people need more time to be able to accept this energy into their realm, and when it’s out there in the universe for all to share the “weight of the world” won’t be as bad.

Love a x

Fitness Journey 🏋🏼‍♀️

Hi babes,

So for the past 5 months I’ve been on an intense health kick and fitness buzz!

I’ve swapped candy for carrots and walkers for water 🤭 .. it was a gruelling start to what is now a normality and I wouldn’t change it for the world.

Believe it or not I’ve always been very into fitness whilst not having the body to show it but that doesn’t mean that I didn’t have the drive or passion for all things healthy. Truth is whilst dealing with anxiety and depression it’s common to either over indulge or deprive yourself from eating.

In my case probably more so in the past year it was due to anxiety and just not being in a good place in life I felt I was at my heaviest and started to get really down about it.

Although I was perfectly fine before I felt for me to be comfortable in my own body again I needed to make a change and so I did. I literally woke up one morning and joined the gym and have since become obsessed!

What works for me ofc might not work for everyone as each body is different and if you are going to embark on a fitness journey DO your research before dieting or exercising, any sudden changes to your routine can throw your hormones off balance and cause stress to your body if you rush into it. (Coming from a female perspective)

Start off with a plan and mini goal, work off that small goal and smash it to prove to yourself you will hit all major milestones! Gradually introduce different foods into your diet and substitute the unhealthy options. Then start off with a comfortable practice at the gym layering routines into simple cardio have fun with it and change it up every time.

The key is to start off slow and pick up pace when you get used to it! This worked for me and is still something I’m working on.. Layering workouts makes you test your limit as well so you know what works and how it changes your body.

Well that was a quick insight into my fitness journey, I’ll be making another post soon on comfortable gymwear x

Setbacks

Why is life so hard and trying sometimes?

It literally feels like at times you’re all alone in the world just wanting someone to hear you but everybody is busy in their own lane they fail to realise you’re stood right there!

We all want to go places in life some of our goals are over with some aren’t, we all want to be happy which is the main goal of course.

I want to do better for myself, I want to try at something and succeed, I want to be able to take pride in something I created but sometimes life and all it’s challenges take over.

I’m capable of so much, I’m such a talented individual yet I lack so much confidence 😔 Do you feel this way to?

A x

Happiness.

When you let go of things that hurt you, break you, make you weak or trap you it allows your vision and mind to become clearer.
I’ve let go of and learnt so many lesson in the past year that I will never go back to, I changed for the better and to be kind to myself and allow myself to feel free and love freely. 

I used to block out emotion for years not realising it only made me more sensitive and unwelcoming, as I’ve explained in my other blogs I used to be very insecure and not confident within myself which projected negative energy in everything I did or associated myself with. 

I know there’s people out there that are so stubborn and set in their ways it really makes me wonder how much of a genuine person they are? True they could be hurt by deep rooted issues but live and let go. Allow yourself to be loved and give love, be kind to people, don’t act like you’re humble actually be humble and help people, be positive and creative. Make wrong moves and go down dark paths because you will end up in the light but only if you let go of negativity. 

But it’s true that you can’t change your life in one night, you have to learn how to adapt to people around you even change who you hang around with. Close minded people really irritate me it’s like dude why hate from behind your window when you can come outside and enjoy your life. People that choose to make happy people unhappy are horrible and you need to stay away from haters like that. Or brush them away. 

There’s no arguing with a fool, a narcissistic loser or more so somebody who is stubborn so what I’ve learnt is you can’t bring yourself down to help someone who can’t be helped. It’s not your problem! I’m a very nurturing person and probably a big enabler and that’s something I need to work on because you can’t let everybody walk all over you just because “you’re too nice” the world doesn’t understand that language, if there’s places you want to be or need to go straight savage mode is what will get you there but always remain true to yourself! 

I made this post today because currently I’m in bed getting enough sleep before my night shift *sad music* LOL 

But I just wanted to be real with you, or anyone who is going to read this. The sun is poking its way through the blinds now so I probably should get out of bed and make breakfast or brunch. 

The start of the week has been positive for me and that’s a big deal in my world, having to deal with happy days and sad days is a challenge not everybody understands. 

But hope you have a good day. 

Makeup and beauty posts for the weekend so look out for that.

Bye babes, 

A x

The Right Path || Gaining Self Confidence

Hey babes so, 

When life’s path has two directions with arrows pointing either side it’s very hard to determine which path to take. But which one do you take? Putting yourself in a situation where it seems like it’s the world against little old you, which star do you follow back home? 

I’m currently in a situation where I don’t know which direction to turn, crazy I know 😫 and honestly it’s driving me mad. 
On one hand I’ve been given an opportunity to take which is something I’ve been working so hard for, but on the other hand the path that leads that way is a bumpy road so what should I do?! 

I’m usually a confident person but I’m insecure at the same time, if that makes sense. So this makes it really hard for me to have self confidence or believe I’m good enough. A lot of people have contributed to this feeling, the feeling of not being good enough for something or someone and it’s harder each time to break out of that habit of doubting yourself. It’s an unavoidable situation because people won’t always have your best interests and they won’t always 100% be there for you. 

Anxiety really is your biggest hater in these situations! Here’s a few tips of how to get rid of this feeling. 

1. Believe in yourself
2. Ask a friend for advice
3. And do what makes you feel confident
4. Re-evaluate your situation and ask yourself can I do this
5. Realise that the answer is yes you can
6. Make a list or plan what your next step is
7. Don’t listen or associate with negative people
8. Surround yourself with positivity
9. Avoid loneliness
10. Remember who you are 

I know I need to follow my own advice and that’s exactly what I’m going to do! I’m going to fully focus on my future and life goals and slay them all 💛 

Like and comment! 

Let me know what I can do and whether or not I should take the opportunity?

A x

Happy Saturday || Turn weakness into strength.

Negativity strikes us only when we are at our weakest, that should tell you something. 

Becoming weak is incredibly different to having a weakness, because a weakness is something you fall back on, keep going towards or purposely go back to, a weakness is a choice. However becoming weak is almost like a setting you can’t switch off. 

We have this glitch in our system from time to time but this doesn’t mean we can’t fix it or be fixed, just like any engineering it takes time and careful handy work to get things up and running again. 

I treat my mind this way too, there are tons of things that take me to that “glitch” but they are my weakness, almost certain to cause that inference in my journey, it’s my choice to let it become more than my goals or my aspirations sometimes I forget the whole saying of “never move backwards” but it’s hard, truthfully I’m not going to lie because I’m a real ass bish. 

It’s so hard to not move backwards! It’s like trying a new candy for the first time, you help yourself to as many as you like because simply you like them, but then they start to run out, the box is almost empty so you savour every last one but don’t think to stop, and then suddenly they’re gone. 

And you wish you had taken it slower, appreciated that you were content with the full box knowing they would last a long time but instead you became hasty and irrational. You made it your weakness.

The repition is exhausting in fact it’s painful, trying to break a habit is hard. Once you get comfortable with enabling yourself it becomes almost impossible!

The weakness or the “glitch mode” can come in many forms it could be a tv show, an ex, a food! Lol literally anything but the most important thing is to differentiate between a harmless weakness and a self destructive one. 

I know chocolate is one of my weaknesses 😬😭 is it self destructive? Probs not, but boy it does not help my skin when I’m trying to be all flawless or waheva but it taste damn good. 

A few steps to break away from the glitch.

1. Limit visual/ physical contact 
2. Avoid run in’s “if it applies to a person”
3. Learn to substitute with something uplifting and positive 
4. Distract/ prevent the urges to go back to it
5. Talk about it with somebody you trust
6. Reflect! 
7. Learn to forgive and forget!
8. Keep your mind active 
9. Read a good book! 
10. Ask yourself is it worth it?

In other news how cute are Bey’s babies, Sir and Rumi 😍 

Leave a comment and share your weakness! Try to motivate each other 💕

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Bye babe, A x

VIBE || Planning

Sooooo I’ve been slacking on the blogging, only because I’ve been thinking of “my next move” realistically.

I feel like I have so much more to share but a busy work schedule pulls me away from what I have a passion for! 

I’ve been finding it hard to remotivate myself to get back into the consistency but I miss writing so much! 

It almost pushes me into the direction of “learning” 

I guess I have a lot to figure out! 

A x

VIBE || On Wednesdays we wear pink!

Just another grim day in the UK, what’s supposed to be summer is more of a tropical storm with subtle shades of grey in the sky.

Nothing worse when you’re mood is bad and so is the weather! 

In other news have you ever felt or had one of those days, weeks where everything and anything you do is going wrong? Literally any plan you make isn’t going to plan and before you know it emotions are in the air and you feel really down. 

I’m having one of those days for real for real and I just can’t seem to snap out of it! All I wanted to do was go get my nails done and meet my friend but life had other plans and wants to ruin mine! Ugh. 

Leave a comment for any positive ideas to make the day better! 

A x 

Happy Sunday || How to create sunshine in a storm

So it’s Happy Sunday, but am I happy? Hmm. I’ve had one of those weeks where I’ve been close to giving up on a lot of things I’ve put my heart and soul into. 
It always comes back to people, one thing you can’t avoid in this world is people. We meet people everyday, we know people, we talk to people, we LIVE with people!! 

 So trying to make a life without the interference of people or their opinion is very difficult and it’s even harder to not think like them. Yeah yeah I know well don’t follow the crowd right? But that’s ignorance to me, I value people’s opinions and appreciate how they feel and if you’re the type of person to put others before you then continue to do so, because the world would need that one person who can create a sunshine in a storm. 

Steps to staying positive when things aren’t going right:
1. Smile – always always smile

2. Laugh – make your own jokes and laugh who cares!

3. Let go – when you see things aren’t right let it go because chances are it’s not worth stressing yourself over 

4. Slay all day – make sure you check yourself boo boo and be confident 

5. Observe – always be aware of what’s going on around you

6. Set the vibe – listen to that throwback song that makes you feel good 

7. Believe you’re beautiful – cherish that thing that makes you different from everyone else 

8. Help someone out – a good deed of the day really helps

9. Talk that talk – say what you want when you want be open and truthful 

10. Motivation – push yourself to do things you wouldn’t normally do, learn from the mistakes and gain knowledge 
I’m still waiting for the day I feel accomplished in my life but I know it takes a lot of hard work and dedication which is what I’m trying to do but life’s trying me girl and truthfully I want to give up. 

On a more happier note I feel good. I’ve learnt a lot this week. 

And I feel optimistic, it’s okay to have off days just as long as it’s not everyday because I like happy people and you should always be one of them. 
A x 

Tuesday morning || The Vibe for the day.

My thoughts for today are very confused, I’ve been feeling as if there’s something beyond where I’m standing in life right now, somewhere I have to go I just haven’t figured out the path yet.

Negativity gets the best of us when we feel like the world is against us, but trying to turn that into positive energy is the tricky part.

I’ve always believed things have to get worse before they get better. Tough times are simply lessons in life that will test you, they will come in the form of friends who aren’t really there for you, troubled thoughts, insecurity and many other things.

That wall that you hit before something magical occurs is a temporary barrier between you and your goals, the aim is to not stop at the wall, fight through the wall!

I have been and passed this wall many times! And I always assume I’ll see the last of it but here I am yet again facing the barrier between me and my goals. I know where I want to be in life I mean I’ve never been the type of girl to have a clear direction as us Gemini gals are indecisive ♊️ LOL but that hasn’t stopped me from creating new goals and aspiring to be something better than I am.

I am a sensitive yet assertive character due to my dual personality I can be everything and the complete opposite. For quite some time I had a lot of self hate for the way I was, I hated how kind I am, how gentle I am, how selfless I can be and most of all I didn’t like how I would put other people before myself.

Even though these things are great qualities to possess nobody ever addresses how heavy these emotions are to carry. One thing I realised is that I shouldn’t or you shouldn’t be made to feel like being nice or kind is a bad thing!

Although people do take advantage and have hidden agendas just remember in a room full of people with bad intentions you will always be that good soul, the good person that the world needs.

Have a positive day and try to make somebody smile today.

A x